Most Folks Are About As Happy As They Make Up Their Minds To Be
I have been reminded of this saying, by Abraham Lincoln, this month. It is the saying I chose last year, for my September quote for 2010. I also found it on a little note pad, lying ( or is it laying ? - So many of those English words I have not mastered ) around my work room ---
Sometimes it is hard to choose to be happy.
Sometimes life knocks you down so hard you wonder if you will ever be able to choose to get up and brush yourself off and choose to be happy again.
Sometimes, one minute one can choose to be happy and in the next minute, seemingly, out of nowhere, a wave of sadness ascends. It has been amazing to me how powerful and strong a hold each emotion has over my body and my senses.
When I was in CA, at the beach, with my dear friend, Janice --- she brought something up to me about myself ---
I, of course, know I am a control freak.
I had not recognized, however, through my posts, I seem to exhibit being in control, even through my sadness. I responded to her that I always try to be honest. She told me I am honest, but once again, even in my honesty, control comes through --
I try to be in control-
Especially of Myself
Well, Guess What --
I was silently having a conversation with God,
while enjoying my martini, looking out across the beautiful pine trees, moon rising in the sky, temperatures so perfect my skin felt like silk , a glow came across my body, and I had an epiphany-
My life was before me in different stages-
Death of Spouse
Finding My Dear Husband
Years of Sadness with Amber's Drug Use and Acting Out
Years of Amber Seeming To Be In Control
( even though I recognize now, she was always struggling )
Becoming a Grandmother
Extreme sadness at the once again loss of my daughter -
Death of my Daughter
Time is beginning to be of the essence in my life.
There are not that many years left on this earth,with which to add many more categories-
I cannot take away the past-
I cannot change the choices made in the past-
I cannot make Amber come back and be a whole person --
I am posting this today for Alice W. She and her husband, Joshua, have just purchased their first home. She is such a talent. Her current post on her blog shares before pictures ( they are moving in this Saturday ) of their new house they will be turning into a home. You can visit her here http://alicew.typepad.com/thoughts_from_alice_w/ She mentions in this post she wants a farmhouse sink but she also mentions that thing we all know about - BuDgEt-
I found the very best deal on my farmhouse sink, when we were doing exactly what Alice and hubby are in the midst of doing, at Ikea. I have been very happy with it. The only draw back was there was not a hole for a water dispenser --- but for the price --- I am happily living with it ! :)
May your BuDgEt not keep you from doing anything you so desire today!